.:Missing The Very Important Person I Called UMI:.

Crying! Crying! Crying! I can't stop myself crying when I remember the touch of person I called UMI. "Umi, you may never read this anywhere, you may not know how I feel most of the time but if you were to read my blog, I just want to tell you that I really LOVE you and I really miss you so much!" Nape umi tinggalkan kami tanpa sepatah kata? Nape umi tak bagitau dulu umi nak pergi? Still crying! Tak tau nak cakap ape... I just wished to have a little bit time with you, mum! I just want you to see the new me. Now:

• I'm better than before. Nak kata 100% baik tu taklaa but at least 50% changed. OKlaa kan? Umi ingat lagi tak I'm the most manja doter dan paling suka merajuk dan paling malas dan paling degil dan paling secretive dan paling needs attention dan paling nakal dan paling ngengada dan paling comel (ahaha, so perasan)? Now I'm no more. Erk, sikit2 tu ade laa. Dulu umi layan je, skrg ni my husband malas nak layan. So kene laaa berubah sket. Hehe! I know I was quite childish la, especially kalau tak dapat ape yang I really wished to have or less than what Kaklong gets. Hehe. Tapi umi mmg very understanding and sporting. Ayah bagi Kaklong RAV4, then you rendered your new beetle - it was the most anniversary gift you loved but still willing to give it to me! You loved me more than the car. Yahoo000 then I love you more than everything, mum! I can get it back but I don't want to.. I was sooooo happy living in the past;
• I have a husband who really loves me and can take a good care of me. You don't have to worry anymore cuz he can take a very good care of me for you. And he promised to love me as much as you loved me. He can stands my not-so-good-behaviorsss. Many more I want to tell you about him but I don't have the chance. He has helped me to change a lot and never give up! The most important for you to know is, I'm not 'manja' anymore. Plz pray for our happily-ever-after marriage OK;
• I have my son who always remind me to my mother, his existance teaches me to be strong as you did. Every moment I watch him grows is the every moment I appreciate all your efforts to raise me as a human. I hope I can do better for my son, eventhough I know I can't. But I will try my best to raise your granchild(s) in a good manner.
• I can cook. Wow, surprised! The most you worried I can't cook for my husband then my husband will leave. Hehe. No, mum! He accepts me as who I am and encourage me to be the best of me, and see now I'm better than a chef tau. You must be surprised with those kind of menus I've cook. I think I have a hidden talent which I got from you laa. Selain daripada masak the main course, ade jugak I try buat the desserts tau. Dan sekarang ni tgh belajar buat kek and biskut pulak. Hehehe. (Umi, rindunya nak makan masakan umi, nak gelak2 dan gosip2 kat dapur walaupon I didn't help you in the kitchen!);
• I'm almost done with my Master and Insya'Allah will graduate in August 2009. I did all for you, mum. Ingat lagi mase kite pegi Sweden, umi cakap nak hantar me and Kaklong sambung master kat sana so that you can stay there with us. Pastu gi UK, umi cakap camtu jugak. Even mase gi umrah pon you still wish the same. Pendek kata umi nak kami menuntut ilmu sampai ke tua lah! Haha. Paling kelakar umi cakap takleh kawen selagi takde Master. Tapi I get married in my 2nd module of my MEM. Sorry! Umi sayang sangat kat kami berdua kan, walaupon kdg2 I thought you loved Kaklong more than me. So jeles lah! Btw, I did my master in UNITEN and I wish you'll be there on my graduation OK. It was not as easy as I think to complete the Master cuz daddy didn't encourage me as you want him to do but my husband did. Nevermind, it's all over now;
• Currently I'm in holiday season, unemployed and 'temporary' fulltime housewife. Hehe. But I will actively seeking for a job after 'something' (which I can't disclose here). I'm so sorry cuz I can't continue working at your company and take care of the business. I have to follow my husband, with so many other reasons and I think you knew me, I'm not interested in business and not a risk taker and not as strong as you were. But you know what, A6 is the only one working there and let's hope he can brings the best for the business and the family.

p/s: Sorry ye Farees, mummy tumpang blog Farees. Ntah ape yang mummy merapu ni tapi.. Uhhh...but this is really cool. It can help me to feel better lah! Huh! Thank you so much for being the best mother ever in my life. Thank you so much for everything, everything, mum!!! To everybody, Loves your loved ones before it's too late! I love my husband, I love my daddy, I love my son, I love my family, I love my friends, I love all the Mama!